Today I was checking some pictures I've got from High School time... then I found many of them... even some of my ex girlfriend... and some others from former friends and foes... which revived many memories on me...

then I came to think where are they now?... I know they're doing great in their lives... I know they're happy with them ...achieving their goals... except me...

Yes, now I see clearly... I think about my life and how far I came from those days...and I see that I'm the only one left behind in the road... I've never achieved any major goal in my life...as well that I haven't found the love I've been longing for so long... I only have a really bad job... and I picked up what it seems to be the only vacation that leaves no money in your pockets....art. Isn't it ironic how life works for some and some others... many people have the greatest life, a life worth living it... but mostly they don't deserve it, but do I deserve that great life others have??...

I've been a friend and a lover... I know I screwed up as a lover due to my jealousness... but I know I've been a good friend... I'm always the one that cares... and goes to visit just in case... but who is there to call me?...or to ask me how am I feeling?... who is there to take care of me??... I don't want to answer those questions with "none"... Maybe I am too blind to see what's the truth...I'll never know....

Isn't ironic that the "first love" you've got left you a curse (you know...when you fall in love...you get addicted) and she never loved you, no matter what she says?... she knows it... she didn't loved me... More ironic is that she found the "love of her lifetime"... and thanks to her boyfriend contacted me to his cousin for a commission...

I'm 21... I'm an "adult"... but if I say that I didn't achieve anything in this life...I know someone will say..."but you're too young, you've got a lot of years to achieve it"... it's impossible in this time and how the world is moving now... everything is going so fast... and I feel left behind from the road... and besides... I don't want to live that long...I don't want to achieve my goals when I am 50 years old...

But I see that impossible... I'm throwing the towel now... maybe I should surrender... after all...we didn't choose how to live, right?

Take it as you want to take...I don't give a shit if you call me "Emo kid" for writting this... I'm expressing myself...and I know I'm no Emo... so, deal with it...









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Artists you should watch at least once in your life:



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